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11/30/2001 IHT: Medici Portrait Sheds a New Light on Color the first European portrait of a girl of african decent... painted over for centuries. A Small Room In a small room, not quite a cafe I work as in a dream of motion and regard. Patrons dance around me in a blue haze of consumption and intersection: questions, selections and requests of the burned, the boiled and the fried. I bend to each and every whim; sing to tunes, and dance drums. Pulled in every direction, packaged History I listen to history reflected in your smile. A geek moment. You state your position; pomulgate the way-things-are. But I only see the pulsing vein at your throat, and smell your sanguine essence in a zig-zag structure of life. Cells floating in an n-dimensional space of memory and desire. An intersecting lattice of broken dreams, piercing minds and deflating memory. 11/28/2001
Just a shot at boredom I'm not quite dead, I think to myself. Why? I'll never know. You'd think I'd make my mind up and figure out where to go. I'm somewhere on the edge between the night and day, wondering why I bother to get up each evening to play. Perhaps I'm on a mission, quite secret and insane, to drive the future forward or to hunt and kill and maim. The reason and rationale would be hidden deep in my soul, unaccessible by my conscious mind; locked in a mental hole. But more than likely nothing's up, and I must contend alone to make some sense of this existence before my heart turns to black stone. For now I'll just content myself, as I'm won't to do, and suck the blood of those hapless souls who've nothing left to rue. I rejoined the vda-newcarthage vampiric group after reading Danny's comments on them. I left out of boredom, but it seems like a lively discussion is going on now, and a very nice short story. Now I'm groving to Johnette Neopolitano as a result. Life is good, even if it is the afterlife. Last August I submitted two poems to The Harrow. Never heard a peep out of them, dispite my multiple connections with them through SpazzM and Cos. But nothing... hmmm... perhaps that's why. Anyways, I mailed off again to ask what happened. I'll let you know. THey were good poems. So good that I'll post them here again... they're called Left and unRealVampires... Left. unRealVampires... But we are not beings of logic and reason. We cannot exist once understood. We are not commodity. All else is dross, trivial, inconsequential... What? Is this a game? A fiction? Give me back what I have lost: But, under no circumstances, turn me into a talk show 11/26/2001 My Butt Hurts! And I want no comments from the peanut gallery! Tomorrow: the vampire meets the accupuncturist. Which woman's the biggest prick! 11/24/2001 Noor's back! I'm hoping to go up to visit this weekend. No, not today. Soon anyway. I want to hear what really happened. I've been watching it on the news all the time. Cool pictures... 11/23/2001 Dominant Voice Whose voice is speaking, yours or hers or mine? Thinking the voice is yours, you made demands. Struggling to make ourselves seem real, and pleasure brought us together. 11/22/2001 Ok, my new email works now too... it is *@sarahsmiles.com, or so I'm told. That means, aside from sarah@sarahsmiles.com the following will work: beautiful @sarahsmiles.com nutbar @sarahsmiles.com undead @sarahsmiles.com superkalafraglistichowyouspellthisthing @sarahsmiles.com Isn't technology wonderful? Music: Rhythm of Cruelty by Magazine (circa 1979) Excuse my confusion, but I'm still moving to a new host. Or rather I'm being moved. Emma/Spazz are taking care of it all... and I have much to do in the process other than muddle and freak, and wonder why the gods of DNS haate me. Hey, WHO are the gods of DNS, and how do they know where I am? Music: The Sacrifice. Michael Nyman from the Piano soundtrack... Mood: None. 11/21/2001 is my webbuddy Metachick/Hildegarde. She's now got her own cartoon! She's always wanted one, so she spent months journaling for Backwash... and now she has one... Perspicacity? 11/19/2001
I love Amelie. [This is a NEW link to the official site!!!] Blogged more about the movie on Thraxil (link on right). I had to wait to get a bootlegged DVD version, because I need the subtitles. Same director who did City of Lost Children and Delicatessen too. Someone said he did Alien Resurrection too. Checking that. Also, I just realized that the guy I like from Amelie was also in Diva, long ago. Just saw Diva a year or two ago. Dominique Pinon WAS in it too... 1981. Looked much younger. Sigh. I like Amelie. 11/18/2001 Ok. Now this is weird. I was teased for being such a harry potty carmugeon. So, I give in and go to the harry potter site to sign up and get sorted into a class. And what happens? NOTHING. The main page goes ballasitc, flashing and flashing. I get the main page stopped and go off to register and get sorted. Same continually reloading. Then it crashes. I got nothing. I guess Harry Potter is only for the living. I want a DRAGON! 11/16/2001 I just browsed through all my posts on Anders' Thraxil. Amazing piece of technology. I WANT one for my own. Confusing as puss a t the moment, but it is wonderful to see something grow before your eyes. Oh, ya... my post first post. "I feel textually migrant, lining up at the immigration station to get validated: beautiful promise, fallen on hard times: tempi duri per I vampiri. Thanks anders, for community access. Sasm" Somehow I still feel that way. 11/15/2001 42 is a number popularized by Lewis Carroll and in Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy. But, as ShortGoth asks, is there an explicit relationship betwix the twain? Tell me! If you don't know me. I write poetry. Lots of poetry. Lots of bad bad bad poetry. As long as the verse is terse and perverse... This isn't best, nor even done, but it was from today.
11/13/2001 Oh, and like the new picture from me? I'm learning lots... like how to get all the vertical lines out of pictures from my stupid scanner!
My most bestest buddy Noor's looking for some family missing in Floods in algeria. I don't get the idea of floods in a desert, but that's me. I hope they're ok, but the shock for me, was that I'd forgotten that there was anything else going on in the world. America is in shock, and Kabul is falling, and I'm still watching. Sheesh. 11/12/2001 Bad Star America has fallen again; America is at its knees again; There is room in my heart for Americans. Their collective misunderstanding And they sit, 11/10/2001 Embraced Blue-black edges Crushing brused desire- Smoldering fragrant memory, My patience, stretched Blood Lust (or are you really listening) Yes, you know it, have it, desire it. Look upon your desire. Feel it on your tongue. Let it roll around your mouth, and soon you are undone. Stalk it through the city streets, it's thirst that leads you on. Smell it sitting next to you sense the psychic bond. I will watch it pass you by, slipping from your grasp, Nobody loves me when I don't post. Thus I must speak to live. Lots of longhand in notebooks, which I just can't get around to transcribing.. I just can't let the computer run my life. The order of the Garden 11/8/2001 11/7/2001
Thraxil has had a totally insanely wonderful make-over... a creative snot-nosed punk to JuanitaWhoHacksTheBrainStem sort of transmogrification. It is pretty. Orange is nice in the autumn. I miss red leaves. [Outstanding questions and average lies] First our eyes met as I got off the bus, and you out of your cab The moment of our brief meeting unnerved me, leaving long questions 11/6/2001 Quote of the day: "The Large Print giveth. And the Small Print taketh away" Tom Waits, "Step Right Up" 11/5/2001 It is just my day for finding cool stuff on the net. Er...thanks to Yoshiro for sending this to me. CASE SETTLED: JUSTICE TO BREAK UP APPLE FOR TURNING MICROSOFT INTO MONOPOLY Alternative OS Maker Used Anti-Competitive Practices Against Itself Harry Potter is popular everywhere. So, I guess i'll have to read it. But thank god for Esme and her wealth of lore. She just sniffed at the commercial we were seeing on CNN International, and informed me that witches never sit on brooms like that. It took me forever to get it out of her, such was her indignation. Were they suposed to ride sidesaddle? No. The bristles face forward! Thus spake Esme. I wonder what caused the change in direction? The US space race? Does a broom have to look like a thrusting object? Or merely phallic? Bert is Truly Evil according to Wired. Bert is truly evil: Remember how the Sesame Street character Bert appeared on a poster next to Osama bin Laden? According to one fellow named Robert Koontz, who says he's a former National Security Agency instructor, that was a coded message intended to set off biochemical attacks on the United States. We don't know whether Koontz is a well-briefed military analyst or just plain wacky, but you can read his investigation into this unusual topic at bringmenews.com. I never liked Sesame Street much.
11/4/2001 Oi, Slag! I got published again. It is a couple of lines that I co-wrote with the Spazz. It is in print in a chapbook called "Death Night Blood". But I don't have any more details yet. Coolio. I wrote a very long poem... unfortunately it really sucks. But luckily it is really funny. I love it. But it is bad. More badder than what I share with you. So I won't share it. And you can all piss off. That said, I have some snippets that I'll share. Perhaps you'll even like them. It is certainly better than harrypotter.com.
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